Abdul Opens Up About Painful Eating Disorder
November 3, 2005

Paula Abdul's giant career spans decades, and this weekend, the "American Idol" judge was honored with a special award -- but it wasn't for her music or her success, but rather for overcoming her long-time battle with bulimia.

"It became a living hell for me," Abdul admitted. "I wanted to get help. I want to be free from weighing myself on the scales."

The National Eating Disorders Association presented Abdul with its highest honor, the Profiles in Living Award. So is Abdul happy with the way she looks today?

"You know, it's like any other girl," she admitted. "I have my moments when I look in the mirror and say, ‘I'm okay.' I refuse to weigh myself. I don't have scales in my house."

Abdul said she even battles sinister Simon when he slams "Idol" contestants about their weight. "It's perpetuating eating disorders," she insisted. "How much did Simon and I fight over that?"

Paula admitted the "American Idol" bickering is nothing personal. In fact, she even has a soft spot for Mr. Mean, telling us, "Three things I love about Simon Cowell. That he's nowhere around me right now; that he's on a plane back to London; and that I have a month before I see him."

As for her personal life -- don't even ask! "I'm not dating anybody," Abdul told us. "My life is pathetic. ‘Extra,' let's develop a show: ‘Win a Date with Paula Abdul.'"

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